ME IN MOTION “SANCTUS REAL SPRING TOUR” BLOG 7:
So this blog is going to be one of honesty, one that you probably don’t read every day. Hopefully you all are cool with me opening my heart a bit for you to see. I don’t have a lot to say, other than, sometimes being on the road is a mind and emotion-numbing experience. It comes in phases, and has really kicked in on me for some reason this week. Being in a van for 17 hours at a time, getting out, unloading, meeting tons of people, maybe napping for an hour or 2, playing the show, meeting more people, then packing up, and doing it all over again for 3 years in a row, can burn a person out pretty quickly. And for me, personally, I have to fight to not let it get robotic. What happens for me is that I feel like I fall into a funk and feel a bit lethargic. And I’m almost sad to admit all of this because we are doing exactly what we feel like God wants us to do, and doing what we love, in traveling and playing music, sharing a real ministry with so many cool people.
I think this may be the same for some of you out there, but just translated into an every-day life context. Maybe you’re feeling a bit burned out with working the same job day in and day out, or going to school just feels like a pointless routine. Whatever it is, I think all of us can relate with this feeling at some point, and have to fight together to keep joy, passion, and a good attitude in life. As Christians, I think sometimes we feel like we can’t admit these feelings, like maybe we always have to look like we always have it together, when at times, we really don’t feel a thing. The same can also be said of being in a relationship. A lot of you married readers out there can probably attest to the fact that, even though marriage is one of the greatest gifts from God, if not the greatest, there are a lot of days when you really have to fight to keep love alive. That’s why if relationships aren’t rooted in true love, and something much deeper than a day-to-day feeling, they will fall apart, marriage or friendship equally alike.
But you know what I’ve realized at the end of the day, is that it’s always best to keep an honest perspective, and to even know that there will be days when the “happy, fuzzy” feelings evade us. And that’s ok. It takes humility for a person to admit that they don’t have it altogether. This is an especially scary thing for me, because there is so much pressure that comes with being the lead singer for a Christian Rock band, that I, for one, have to “have all the answers”.
But, the one thing I can conclude after all of these thoughts, and I hope encourages you as much as it does me, is to remember that God is consistent beyond all our feelings or circumstances. I’m always reminded of Job, who probably had more days than most when he didn’t “feel” like loving God. And secondly, I always think back on our Savior Jesus, who, if He lived His life based on feelings, probably would have not went to the cross for us. He, after all, was completely human and felt the same things that we do. So, together, let’s not be afraid to admit our feelings are real, they have a place, and aren’t wrong to have. But let’s also together, remember to even look past our feelings and know that they pass quicker than we realize it. We have a God who is way beyond all of them.