I struggled with emotional and mental illness for about a year and a half. It was really overwhelming for me because like many may feel in that space, it felt like God was nowhere to be found. Until I came across this incredible scripture in the book of John chapter 11 verse 35 — “Jesus wept.” Reading that validated so much for me. It made realize that I serve a God who doesn’t dismiss human emotion, he sees it, he validates it even when he himself knows of the goodness to come. Sometimes we don’t want to be told we’re going to be okay, because we know we will be. We want to be seen, known, and heard… and invalidating an emotion almost feels like you refuse to acknowledge that the problem exists.
That’s why I wrote Sanity — to reflect the process of feeling known, heard and seen by the father. Expressing those raw emotions in the song itself so the depths of God’s love could be understood on the level he expressed it to me. He wept with me and empathized with my heart. He brought healing to what I felt would be permanently broken within me and I wanted the same for whoever struggled with the same feelings and emotions.
Sanity is a “song hug” it lets us know He sees , He knows , He hears and through that He Validates and brings resolution.